today felt lots better than yesterday..but mood more down..cause yesterday i really get so hurts

i try my best for everything...but is still so hard...why i need make so much decision???

why i got so much pressure on me????i hate it...but i still have to face it

today me n teddy nothing much to talk..i dun knw what i should talk???

i really like a mess now....my mind empty again...just now got write a letter for mom

i dun knw what mom will reply me....i so hope we can face together...but i knw u cant make it

so nvm...i make my own decision...i face it by myself....

just now be4 mom went out...check my hp again...get scold again....but my heart pain till almost die

i got nobody can rely to...i am sad..nobody know....

but..all of this not important anymore...what i understand today is...im alone...

what i decided...then what i pay for it....